i'm tired, sad, a waste of fucking space, feel like shit, no one is online, did something stupid....i cant do anything right. falhlkdabg;;i don't have the words to discribe it i feel really really bad, i know on the outside i look happy and fine, on the inside i'm fucking screaming and dying, why does this happen to me when things were so good...well good enough compared to all these...to most of you this doesn't make sence, somone else is sad that i dont want to be hurt at all,            ganna die and wont come back to life this time,  brandon

PS rmind me to right about when i died, that happened during the long period of time i wasn't allowed on the internet

this spring break is turning out to be soo awesome...even tho my parents are mad at me cause i have a D in geometry...i had a swim meet that was good i broke a minute in my 100, yah i don't really want to say what i'v done in my journal......................but i went to the movies with becka last night it was really fun i dunno to omuch about the movie but the company was good, sharlyn was there too. and right knwo i am alone and it's not fun to be alone when your like yah heheh. 

brandon

YAY I'M GOING OUT WITH BECKA KNOW!!!!! yah, i asked her outside her spanish class.it was probably lame but i had to do it then cause i think she was getting mad at me that i wasn't asking her ever.  yah and soon theres this parrty and yah ...dunno if i can wright it on here.....well it will be fun cause becka will be there!! and....can't think of anything else i can right on here...cause everyone reads it yah

brandon

o yes....today i was planning on asking becka out cause i wanna do it in person cause online and the phone seems detached, but then i had the stupid swim meet soooo yah that's why i wanted her to "go to the bathroom........and everyime i see her i wanna kiss her but then if i did she's think i'm strange. at's everything